I was a teen mom.
Okay, I’m lying. I wasn’t.
I was actually more like a recently-graduated-from-college-and-working-as-a-teacher mom.
But, whatever, the older #1 gets, the younger I have to have been when I had him to keep the I’m still 29 lie going.
So yeah, just for my own happiness, I guess we’re saying I was, um, 19 when I had him.
Because today is his birthday.
His TENTH birthday!
I’m crying while I’m writing this post.
CRYING.
Clearly I’m an emotional mosh pit (and typing this while also watching Something Borrowed) who can’t face the fact that I’m getting old oldish mature.
And so is my baby.
I can hardly stand by and watch it happen right in front of my face.
I really just want to reach out and make it stop.
Because this is who I see when I look at him…
This is who I could hold in my arms and cuddle and make do my bidding hug in public and stuff.
My forever empty womb is aching people.
Because this is who he really is now…
The extremely handsome Dude who sorta-kinda says goodbye to me while getting quickly out of the car at school and scurrying away so my probably-yelled-a-little-too-loudly I love you’s can hardly reach his ears before he slips into the school and away from me.
This person never wanted to slip away from me…
This one does…
I hate it.
And I love it.
Because I love him. So, so much.
Okay, enough sappy Dumb Mom, the kid is turning 10 and I am still refusing to be a day over 29.
And you need to link up your Wordful Wednesday posts and then head over to the Seven Clown Circus and see what Angie is feeling wordful about too!
I keep telling you I’m not listening to this whole kids get older stuff. Please let me live in ignorance.
PS Happy birthday #1!
Happy birthday #1. I’ll be sure to come back next week when the oldest girl turns 11 and I’m panting like your mama. ELEVEN! I’ma need the defibrilator.
Awww — and here I am hoping and wishing the baby stage away so I can clean my house and sleep. :( Maybe I shouldn’t be so eager.
Happy Birthday to him!
When I first met my boyfriend, his daughter was 2 and was potty training. She would often climb up in my lap and want me to read a book to her. Now at 10 she barely notices when i get home from work.
I’m with Jennifer….they really don’t get to be 10, right? It’s not possible. I think you miscounted.
But, just in case, Happy Birthday, Dude #1.
I’m so glad that I’m not the only one freaking out about baby boys growing up. I was crying about my oldest turning 9 and my youngest turning 6 months on the same day! I want them to stay little. My 9 year old asked me not to slow down and wave when I drop him off at school. Broke my heart!
Happy birthday to your handsome dude!
(and, fyi, mother’s age backward. I am NOT turning 40 this year. I’m turning 20 ;)
Awwww…Happy Birthday #1!!! What a handsome young man. I can see why you always want to picture him as a sweet little toddler, what a deliciously adorable little baby! I’m over here weepy eyed for you. But just think, you’ll be the youngest mom in the crowd when he graduates from high school!!
He’s 10!?!?!?! How can that possibly be? My oldest is 3.5 and I can’t imagine him being 10.
You totally don’t look a day over 29 though. ;)
I know JUST exactly what you mean.
Crying along with you.
Happy Birthday to your handsome dude!
Awww. I can’t even imagine that feeling. My dudes are still so little, but I know it goes by really fast.
Happy birthday to your son. They grow up way too fast. I actually was a teen mom. Had my daughter at the age of 17 and that’s how old she is now. Luckily, she hasn’t followed in her mother’s footsteps. I already have empty nest syndrome and my kids aren’t even out of the house yet. Put me in a straightjacket when my daughter leaves for college next year. I hate the fact that they’re growing up and not my “babies” anymore.
Right there with you, Amanda…. :( They grow up way too fast, don’t they? Happy birthday to your handsome not-so-little dude!
Ok I just cried too, he’s so cutely handsome, is that a description? And I don’t even want to think of when my oldest turns FIVE in May!
So sweet! Happy birthday to him! Double digits! That is a major milestone…
happy birthday to your 10 year old! my youngest…my fifth child shall be ten in less than2 months and I still find myself shaking my head in disbelief. how time does fly.
Happy Birthday to your little (or not so little) man! You still look 29 to me =)
Happy Birthday to your little “big” dude!
Happy Birthday!!!
I know the feeling well. Periodically, I ask one or the other of the girls to stop growing and going away. And they say, “You know I can’t do that.”
On another day, someone will say, “I don’t want to grow up and move away.” And I say, “That would be fun, but when you are 22, you have to start paying rent.”
Have a great day. And make friends with the manager of the grocery store, because he will start eating in….3…2…1.
Oh, this terrifies me. My “baby” is now eight somehow. While he is still snuggly and will hold my hand, I know it will not last long. And I will cry. I feel ya.
Cheers.
10 is such an easy age… it’s when they turn 15 or 16 that you really feel sad… because wasn’t it just a few years ago when we were that age?
Funny thing… I’m 29 too.
He’s such a handsome boy! Happy Birthday #1! ;)
I don’t want to know that they grow up and get all independent and hide away in their rooms and stuff. I prefer to keep the fantasy going, like I’m 29 too!
Awwww…Happy birthday, dude. And chin up, mama. :)
Happy Birthday to #1! I keep searching for that ‘pause’ button to no avail. Princess Nagger turned 9 yesterday…they’re growing up way too fast for my liking! ;)
Happy Birthday to your 10 year old. Man, that is hard to type.
And you 29?! I would have guessed not one day over 25.
Great shots. Happy 10th Birthday to him!!
Oh man. This totally makes me want to cry. Everyone is making me cry today. WAH!
Happy birthday to #1.
We were just talking about this yesterday, how we have to let go kinda and we just don’t to, but it’s good.
I feel you.
He is a handsome one. He will always be your baby too. Always.
Happy birthday #1! Such a cutie….I bet you have your hands full fighting off the little chippies ;)
And 29? Is my forever age (true story)
Happy birthday Dude #1!
It’s crazy how they keep getting older, but we don’t. Are those hats a 10 year old thing? My girl just turned 10 a few days ago and she’s obsessed!
I feel your pain. I struggle at all of their birthdays…from my oldest to my youngest. It’s just a reminder that someday they will not be mine. My oldest is going to be 13!! Scarey! He wiggles from my clenched-fist-clasp constantly. I hate it!
Stop it!! You are frightening me…mine is only 6. But your eldest is a cutie! Happy Birthday to him!
My oldest is turning 2 in Feb and I already have issues dealing with him growing up and leaving me!
My oldest is 12 and that is really hard, because his next birthday he will be a TEENAGER! I am so not ready for that. On the upside I still have the toddler stages to look forward to with his baby sister and the infant stages to look forward to with his soon to be baby brother. Nothing like an age gap.
Happy Birthday #1.
Happy Birthday to him! Don’t you hate how time flies?
Happy Birthday #1! My oldest is 10 too but he is my full-time bonus child so I didn’t birth him. He still makes me feel old. In 4 short years he will be in high school. Eeeeekk!
And he has that same blue hoodie! I love it on him and it looks darn good on #1 too!
Double Digits. Sigh. Such a cool dude you’ve got. all of them.
Aw, you’ve got a Birthday Boy today too! I thought I was freaking out about 7…when he turns 10 I will be a gushing mess too…Happy Day to both of you!
I gave my husband several of my birthdays just so I wouldn’t have to be older than him anymore. It worked really well because he can’t remember how old either of us are now! Haha!
Sorry to join the party so late! Time got away from me yesterday…
Oh. my. goodness. Love all the pictures. Time really does fly by! :( I’m with ya!
happy happy birthday to him!!